My mood had its ups and downs today… I wasn’t angry or upset in particular but my day consisted of an oscillating wave of emotions, that kept sweeping back and forth. This morning was quite terrible, I tried to wake up early to get some chemistry studying for my sac today and honestly my head felt like mushed up porridge. I didn’t even sleep properly considering I had a restless night stressing over how awful my spesh sac was. So throughout the morning I felt sick… like puking sick… I didn’t feel like eating breakfast either, cause otherwise I’d probably hurl. During period one I had a 20 minute power nap in the common room and thankgod for that considering I woke up feeling a lot more refreshed. Chem was the next period so I was glad I was a little more alert otherwise I would have been pretty screwed. Afterschool I had another sac but thankgod it was my final sac for the year! It was one of the scariest moments ever. I couldn’t believe I forgot my calculator! So whilst everyone started writing I had to sprint to the opposite side of the school to retrieve it from my locker. I can’t even describe how I felt during that time, it was as though my life depended on collecting my calculator… And I sprinted as though some vicious dog was chasing me. What am I even saying… But anyway that adrenalin rush ignited some sort of wonders for me during Methods- I became so intently focused and I felt so switched on. Man if only I could have felt that way for the specialist sac. Why is it so hard?! :( As unusual and it sounds, after experiencing that sudden panic attack, it was like a wide awakening for me. After the sac I felt so determined to truly put in all my efforts to do well this year. Other than these undulating emotions that have been exhausting me out as well as the added lack of sleep, everything else seems alright. I just can’t wait till the 13th of November when its over!!! Party and Party and YEAH! Time to smash down those practice exams and prove to myself I CAN DO IT!
As cliche as it sounds, I honestly believe that one person; can change who you are completely in just a split second. Whether you notice it or not, it’s inevitable. It’s crazy to think that one person, you’ve either known for years or just a couple of days can change the way you act or talk around people. Probably the best part of it is that it can either turn you into a good person or turn you into a complete opposite of what you were before.